Re: Overcoming the loss of the most amazing girl. EVER.
I completely understand what you are going through. I lost my boyfriend July 17th of this year from heart complications. He was the most amazing person I have ever known and he showed me what true love really is. And now my life is full of pain. I have very little left of him as his family has came in and taken everything. The one thing I cherished was an ipod I had bought him for his birthday. We listened to it every night before bed. We both loved music and had so much in common but that too has been taken from me. I think you are just coping in your own way and to me it seems normal. I too want to be close to him and sleep with his pillow every night and a pair of shorts he always used to wear. People keep telling me that things will get better with time, but at this point it seems impossible. Luckily I have my family to keep me going, but even that sometimes doesn't feel like its enough. One of the last text messages I got from him before he died was that he couldn't wait to see me...and then he never came home and I never saw him alive again. Sometimes I don't think people understand how bad the pain is dealing with this kind of loss. I am glad to have found this message board to have a chance to talk to people who do understand. I am so sorry for your loss and I do hope people are right when they say times heals all wounds.