Re: The end is coming closer
Nola. Will you be ready? Are we ever? My mom died July 29th...though there was a brief moment when I felt panic as she lay very near death..the panic subsided and what was left was the joy of knowing I was there with her. It isn't easy but it is much more manageable then I thought. I cried more in the days of anticipating her death. Her death was such a belssing that I cannot mourn it. This disease was brutal to her. I knew I had to let her go..to love her enough to let her go. And then to go on and make her proud. She was a strong woman and I watched her bury her own parents and siblings and two husbands. SHe taught me how to do it.
THe morning my mom died I came home and as I walked through the door my cell phone rang with an e mail. I looked at it and the heading of the email was " I AM STILL HERE" . It was from the the Alzheimer's association. I felt her at that moment and knew it was a sign sent from her to me. I feel her all around me.
Trust yourself that you can do this.