I was recently diagnosed with HSV-1 AND HSV-2

I have a boyfriend that I am madly in love with, and see myself marrying one day. I am pretty positive I did not get it from him so I am very very scared to tell him and lose him. I have only had sex with two other people (protected sex) and am having a very hard time dealing with my diagnosis. I am trying very hard to stay positive but it is definitely gonna take a toll on a lot of things in my life i know. I am not currently having sex with my boyfriend because I obviously do not want to give it to him and do not want to have sex without telling him about this as that would be very wrong i know. I am so alone in this. I am not telling anyone. Not even my closest friend. Not even my mother who I am extremely close with. I am so emotional about this but am trying super hard to not feel sorry for myself and act pathetic. It is a very hard situation and extremely frustrating. I was happy to come across this site to have people I can relate to and discuss with. I am going to need all the support i can get at this point. I am very scared for my future which once seemed so bright.
Thank you for anyone who read this.