Re: how to get through those moments of weakness?
I hope you'll all be proud that I took a big step: I told my husband. He wasn't angry at me like I thought he would be(although he doesn't know how long I've done this), he was sympathetic. I tried explaining why I want them, which he understands, but not that feeling of needing them in order to function.
I'll be seeing a new therapist tomorrow so I'm going to jump right into this issue with her. I'm scared, dreadfully scared. I haven't been able to go without since I wrote the first time. This is going to be so hard.
I am going to stop, I need to. Your words of support mean a lot to me. Thank you so much for welcoming me without judgement )that frightens me too).