Re: my depression
There are a lot of issues you are dealing with and it will affect the way you live your life drastically. Also your unfortunate trauma as a youngster is unlikely to ever go away.
Remember though before you can take care of your son you need to look after yourself and if you feel that you are capable of looking after your son then feel as though you can do it, otherwise you will have to ensure that your son gets the best family environment possible. Sorry to sound harsh but you need to think what you think is best for you before your symptoms get the better of you.
Wish you all the best in the way you go forward. Thanks