Re: my depression
well at least one good thing there which is that you really want a close unit for your son, shows that you see a positive way forward and that you are willing to do a whole lot for him. Remember though that you want to achieve everything you can for him, take time for yourself, see something that helps you relax from time to time. It could be the simplest thing like a book or TV, something to help you enjoy your free time. It could also be something to vent your anger. All for your benefit.
Let me know what you think. Thanks