Re: terrified to get tested
You have no reason to fear an HIV test, any more than you have any reason to fear any other medical tests. Buddy, having an HIV test does not give you HIV, it lets you know what you HIV status is, which in your case, given what you have posted will almost certainly be negative. You have been doing the correct thing; you have been practicing safe sex.
Most everybody gets pre-test jitters, it is normal and understandable. Donít allow this to get in the way for you having a sexual health check-up. It is perfectly a perfectly normal and acceptable thing to do. In fact everybody who is sexually active should make a point of getting an annual check-up. From what you have posted this is long overdue for you.
Buddy, it is in your own interest here. Have the check up, get a clean slate and move on with your life.