Re: I need help! I am emotionally numb!
Silivasix, I could have written your post myself. I also have no emotion where it should be. I also don't cry when I should and fake feelings with my kids and grandkids. I do everything to get out of being with people and dont have friends, and dont care. My doc says I am "sleepwalking through life", and it is a perfect description of me.
I think this must be common with people who have PTSD? My son is having a birthday party for my grandaughter today. I was to bring baked beans. On Friday I became sick like the flu. Called my son last night to say we weren't coming and after I hung up, it was like a weight had been lifted. I am going to therapy for this (again) because deep into my heart I hate who I am with my own family. I know I love them, and remember being happy to see them, but just cant do it.
You are not alone. Hugs to you