Re: This isnt normal is it? what is wrong with me?
Sound like you have either Bipolar I or Bipolar II, both of which has mood swings, as 'Bi' imply,.... 'two-poles,' depression and mania. Bipolar II is milder form of Bipolar and mostly depression, but it's still one of serious mental illnesses.
I strongly suggest you make an appt. with psycho. therapist or psychiatrist soon, because untreated Bipolar might get worse as time goes by. Also, with appropriate meds., you become a happy person again.