Hello. New guy here.
I've been doing some reading, and thought I'd post here to vent some of my worries. I don't like the odds at this point, so it's just a waiting game.
I'm 33 and pretty overweight (around 340lbs). I have high BP (it's on the low end of high, if that makes sense, and controlled with medication). I also have a terrible habit of eating a lot of junk. (Have chronic GERD as well, take Dexilant once daily and it is well controlled.) I've been diagnosed with "sludge" in the gallbladder and have bouts with it from time to time. I have held off on getting it removed due to the risk of Bile Reflux that sometimes follows its removal. My esophagus is already scarred a little from the GERD - Bile Reflux would undoubtedly make it much worse.
I've started showing some symptoms in the past week or so that concern me. First, it seemed like I was drinking more than usual. Not that I felt the need to really go to the fridge all the time, but when I did drink I usually gulped it down. No dry mouth at first, just really wanted to drink.
Then one morning last week, I woke up and my left eye was really bugging me. It hurt a little, felt a little dry, so I used some non-medicated drops to naturally moisten it. Eventually the pain stopped, but it's been blurry off and on ever since. (I do wear low-power glasses due to astigmatism, and am pretty far overdue for a checkup; plus it's just the left eye that seems affected, and only my distance vision.)
I've also had 2 pretty bad charlie horses, one just last night and the other a week or two back. Both were in the calves.
I now also seem to have a yeast infection in the genital region. However, I can pinpoint to the exact second I started feeling that discomfort, and it was shortly after some private time with the Mrs. wherein a particular, uh...lotion made contact. I've had these in the past, but not recently. Symptoms are typical of what I've experienced before. This particular product has been used before though, so...not sure if that matters.
The kicker was tonight, around 11:30 or so, when I tested my blood sugar using one of those OneTouch Ultra II devices that I borrowed from my mother-in-law. The reading was astronomical: 390. Of course, I immediately started to panic. It was my first time testing with the device, and though I had washed my hands about 15 minutes prior-to, I did not do it immediately. I also did not have an alcohol pad to clean the finger area. then I looked back at my diet tonight: 2 toaster scrambles for breakfast (eggs, cheese, sausage); Starbucks frappuccino to drink; Lean Cuisine Mac and Cheese for lunch, with a small bag of Lay's potato chips; 3 cans of soda at work, and a bag of TGIFridays bacon and cheese chips; 7 buffalo chicken strips (dipped in cheese sauce) with about 8 cheesy breadsticks for dinner (and a tall glass of Mountain Dew Code Red); Wendy's frozen coffee; Gatorade G2 (12oz); 3 bottles of water; 24oz Mountain Dew code red that I had finished probably 60 minutes prior to taking the test. I also had a handful of sandwich pepperoni slices. Last actual food intake before the test was probably four hours or so, though as I said the 24oz Mountain Dew I finished an hour before the test.
Now - I realize that this kind of food intake is incredibly destructive. I have a major problem with stress eating and depression eating, which is why I'm so darn fat in the first place. I do have general anxiety disorder, and am a very obsessive (especially "frightening thought" obsessive) thinker. This is a perfect storm for a sleepless night.
I had my blood sugar (and all other bloodwork) done about 2 years ago, and everything came back all right. I've gained and lost weight since then, though I've definitely gained a lot more over the past 2 years (shortly after my father died). I've never been this fat. I used to weigh 235 or so. I have an office job and a somewhat sedentary lifestyle, but I am disgusted by my weight and appearance and it is definitely having a negative psychological impact even beyond my worries tonight.
I know what I have to do to get myself on track. Controlling food, exercising more, losing this darn weight. That number is hanging around my neck like a weight right now. I can't even think about going to sleep. My intent is to check in the morning, around 7:30 or so maybe, and see if the number has dropped any. I understand that doesn't necessarily mean I'm in the clear or anything. I'm really just hoping that the awful, awful eating habits I displayed this evening (and really, the past few weeks) are responsible for a temporary spike. But based on the reading I've done, temporary spikes usually aren't nearly that high. (Then again, that's a heck of an intake list.)
As I analyze the individual symptoms, as I often due because I'm an obsessive thinker, I see potential "other" causes for some of them. I'm well overdue for new glasses, and the blurry vision is only really impacting things at a distance, it's not consistent (for example, I see the screen just fine right now, with my glasses on and even without to a degree). The yeast infection could have been do to a number of things, like the uh...product that was used, or by something else that is a little too personal to share. The nights I got the charlie horses in my calves, we had our A/C up pretty high and my legs were exposed...could have caused me to contract the muscles wrong or something. The thirst seemed to only strike when I was really hot or overheated at first. After I started obsessively worrying about it, it predictably got worse.
But that number, to me, just seems to be the thing that ties them all together.
I apologize, because this seems like a long, rambling mess...probably because it is a long, rambling mess. I'll be calling the doc in the morning, and getting in to see him as quickly as possible so I can get some legitimate bloodwork done and get tested properly. In the meantime, I guess a lower number in the morning will help pacify me a little until I get to that point. Then again, I'll probably want to obsessively check my numbers throughout the day, before and after eating, to see what's happening. I'm very nervous and impatient when it comes to my health. I spent the vast part of my life being a little overweight but otherwise very healthy, and in the past few years all that just seems to have come crashing down.
So, there's my very lengthy situation and introduction. Thanks for taking the time to read it. I would appreciate any advice/words of wisdom or comfort/verbal lashings for eating so darned irresponsibly in the first place.
When factoring in that abysmal food selection for today, and adding it to similar selections over the past week or so, would such massive spikes be unusual, or their time to dissipate longer? Logically, I would think so, but I'm so unfamiliar with diabetes and its precursor, I'm just not sure.
Thanks again for listening.
Thanks for reading.