Jean883

Dear all,

First, i ask god that u never go through the pain i am going through now. I went to france for a trip and there in a sauna i kissed a guy deep kissing and then had unprotected oral but wasnt long and i didnt finish it. Before that, same day i had protected sex with another guy who asked me to wear the condumn but the it broke and he felt it while i didnt so he stopped me and asked me to change it. As for the first guy, we exchanged emails and i told him how much i admired him and liked the kissing. He then said i am too kind to be with him and i dont deserve him. He said he is hiv positive. I was devestated to know. I am in full panic. I am only 9 days after exposure and cant wait for 3 months. I thoght of killing myself out of fear and panic. I am really down and have many sleepless nights. I talked to him again crying why he did this to me, he said i am healthier than u are and detected his hiv early and is on medication and that he was careful that i dont get it. What should i do at this stage ? Rna pcr or dna pcr. I cant wait 3 months.