Re: MY Excerise/Weight/Health Anxiety
Thank you so much for sharing your story with me! Do you find that you feel sicker, and weaker then ever before because you're beginning to be effected by just how exhausting having these obsessions about food, and other anorexic thoughts that restrict your life on daily basis?I feel unhappy because I am now beginning to recognize how descructive and ridiculous my behaviors are. I totally agree that just because you have restored the weight, does not mean you have recovered from the pyschological aspects of the disorder. Clearly the psychological aspects of anorexia are something I do deal with on a daily basis.
Recently I've been taking initiative to change. I am seeing a counselor now and I have told her about my obsessions and my anxieties about weight, food, and excercise.She has given me some cognitive-behavioral therapy strategies to help me when I experience anxiety around food or not being in control of food. Has your therapy offered you any of this? I will admit I do feel very tied down to my obsessive "anorexic" thoughts all day everyday still though. I find they are so hard to break because I prioritize food and weight all day, ever day. I also realized that right now in my life that if I don't have these obsessions and thoughts about diet, excercise, and weight that I don't even know who I am anymore, and I don't know what I enjoy anymore. That makes me very very upset because that is no way to live and that a normal, healthy person would never struggle with this obsession. So right now I am trying to do those cog-behavioral strategies, but often at times I lose the motivation to change because this obsession is all I know. I hope that makes sense.
Do you agree or experience any of what I have just shared?
Also, do you excercise and does it continue to play a role in your anorexic thinking?
Thanks alot, I look forward to your reply.