I know you are wanting off the hydros and are having a hard time. I can't remember but have you tried a slow taper? It may nit seem so daunting if you go slow. Like, say you take 8pills a day, maybe for the next 5-7 days try to take 7.5 pills. Then move down to 7 pulls for the next 5-7 days etc. It'll take a bit, but you will feel good cause you will have started.
Just something to think about. Trust me, I know how hard it is, for sure... But it can be done. Really.
and even though the board has been pretty quiet lately, know that there is a lot of support here.
All the best,