Thread: ROCD is Hell
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Old 09-25-2012, 09:19 AM   #1
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Unhappy ROCD is Hell

Hello everyone, I am writing this post,because right now it is very hard for me to get an appt. With a psychiatrist. I'm 27, and I recently moved to Texas from North Carolina. I have moved here to be with my boyfriend, we have been on and off for years( mainly due to the fact I have really bad ROCD) I have had it in ALL my major relationships and I use to serial date, because I would always stop liking the dude by the second date. I know I love my boyfriend, but all these horrible intrusive thoughts come i Im just n my head, making me second guess Everything about are relationship. I have had intense anxiety for a couple weeks now, I wake up with it, I go to sleep with it. I have experienced almost every form of OCD at least all the different themes but I must say this one is the worse. All I want to do is cuddle up with my man when he gets home, but then my head tells me, no you don't, you don't even think he is attractive and so on and so on. I even have super intense anxiety as I write this. I just want everyone to know out there just stick with it. Its painful as hell but we must try to get through this for us and the people we may lose. And by the way my boyfriend is a wonderful, caring, intelligent, compassionate person, and when I have those thoughts it makes me feel even worse because he is such a great guy that I feel I don't deserve him. Well I would love to hear from anybody about a similar situation you might be going through. I think it would greatly help me, and does anyone else have intimacy problems due to rocd and can anyone give some example of those, sorry for the long post. Hope everyone has a good day.

 
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