Re: I need strength!
To come off any benzo, such as Xanax, we really and truly need a solid plan in place. We can not just stop taking them cold turkey after using them for a year or as there would then be a high risk of seizures or worse. Also, I say to you in a gentle way, a super high rate of failure even if we made it past the seizures.
First advice... go own up to your prescribing doctor about what has happened. It is so not a new story. Throw any embarassment out the window because unless we are totally honest with our doctors, we will not get the best possible care.
I have been down the exact same road with Xanax. I can not tell you the weight lifted from me once I told all to my doctor. We have to come clean to get clean. Doctor, Hubby and I sat together and made a plan for withdrawal. The basic rule of thumb is to make no more than a 5%-10% cut from any one dose and then stay there for 10-14 days until the body and brain adjust. We know it has adjusted when the anxiety stops and we feel stronger again. Then, make a cut to another dose. ( I don't know how often you take it per day, or the dose, but it is still the same rules).
I took it in 3 doses per day. as I moved slowly along, I started strecthing out the time before I took the first one of the day. I also inched backwards from the nigt time dose to help my brain and body not depend on it for sleep. Over time, my 3 doses merged into 2 and then, eventually 1 dose per day.
Often the cuts will have to mbe made by crumbling a tablet and eyeballing the dose. Save the crumbs towards another dose.
It took me months to get off them and, in retrospect, I should have taken even more time. It truly needs to be a slow withdrawal.
Hop in with any questions you may have. Please know that you can do this. It takes time and discipline, but we can do it. Your life will be restored and the "Original" you will rise again.
With hope always