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Old 10-06-2012, 12:45 PM   #1
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Help?

I grew up with an abusive, passive aggressive mother. I was always calm growing up, and dealt with her, and she stopped these ways about a year and a half ago. But since then, I've noticed myself getting angry with her.

(She is the most stupid and ignorant person I know, and due to her awful childhood, she has a habit of pretending that anything bad in the world doesn't exist.) But this has been getting on my nerves so badly, and I've recently started yelling at her, a lot. And though I've never physically hurt her, it's getting really hard to control myself when dealing with her. I can't stand being near her.

I don't love her, I never have. But now that I'm nasty towards her, I'm starting to feel super guilty about it, and I spend almost every night crying from the guilt that comes from the knowledge that I hate her. And I don't know how much longer I can deal with that pain.

How can I control myself and stop being so angry with her?

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