Re: My first thread... PTSD??
First, you need never apologize for sharing. This is what the board is for. It sounds like you've been through the wringer, and just want to sort out your thoughts and emotions. I'd say the best course would be to consult a professional, and have an assessment. While those of us who deal with PTSD can offer suggestions based on what works for us, it's always wise to start out with a professional work-up. Then you'll have more insight and have a good idea where to start your recovery. It's indeed a process.