Re: Binge eating and depression
I've been where you are. The only advice I can offer is to confide in someone, a doctor or councillor is ideal as they can talk to you properly about it and get you some proper help. If you aren't ready for that, then there are a few things you might want to consider.
firstly, not eating properly feeds the depression. Your brain runs on glucose ie. carbs, and if you don't eat enough of them you get slow, depressed etc. cutting out nutrients and food types is often what leads to a binge as your body needs these things. denying yourself them eventually leads to an overwhelming urge to eat... hence the binging. Allowing yourself to have small amounts of junk when you want it, or usual amounts of 'normal' carbs (like rice, wholegrains, pasta etc) might help in preventing a binge. and if you think about it, having small amounts of those things every now and then probably wouldn't even be as many calories as you would have in a binge.
try to figure out your triggers. are you having particular thoughts or feelings that lead to the binging? if you can identify them then you might be able to find another way to deal with them before it leads to a binge. a councillor would be able to help you figure this out.
The hard part is that it's a cycle. depression feeds the disorder and the disorder causes depression. The best way to break the cycle is to get some professional help. if you are unwilling to do that, try to take note of how you feel or what you're thinking when you eat. I know it's easier said than done but try to ease up on the rules or restrictions you put on food. don't cut anything out and make sure you have enough calories each day. You're still growing, starving yourself will stunt your growth and your body will just eat up the muscle you're trying to develop at the gym and slow down your metabolism in response.