Tired with no help feel trapped
My 11 year old is home for school vacation. I'm at a point where I feel like I'm running on empty. She's too high functioning to recieve respite services from the state. At the same time, she can't go anywhere without something happening. Something. I know I sound very mean right now but I'm at my wits end. She cries when we go shopping. She wanders off when we go to the YMCA. We've been through a police investigation from someone attacking her. We've been through her being pulled out of school because of bullying. I know it's selfish of me to say that I'm tired of her going through things - bc she is the one suffering. But I'm starting to feel ambivalent, that now everything and every part of my life is about her and what might happen to her next. I'm tired and there are no breaks and no one understands, I'm starting to resent this whole thing. Is that selfish?!