| | Having to Starve To Maintain Post Anorexia Recovery Weight HELP!!
Okay I really need help with this problem because I'm at my wit's end. I literally can't take this anymore.
Here's the basics, last year I slipped into anorexia. I started at an unhealthy weight of 150 lbs and I'm about 5"5. I ate horribly and never worked out but then I started to work out. I ran on an elliptical pretty hard for about 1.5-2 hours EVERYDAY and ate around 800 calories.
I eventually agreed to go up to eating 1600 calories a day, with the same work out but I started to lose even more. Within a year I had gotten down to a dangerous 95 lbs. My liver functions started to mess up so I decided to gain weight.
I did not go into a hospital or treatment program. I upped my calories to 1900-2000 calories a day and still worked out on the elliptical for about an hour a day. Since June I was gaining 2 lbs EXACTLY every four days. Like I would be 100 then four days later 104, four days later 108.
I wanted to reach a weight of about 120 which I did. The only problem is even when I dropped my calories back down to 1600 and started working out 2 hours and even doing some light weight work I am still gaining.
I ate 5000 on Christmas and gained 5 pounds over night and STILL haven't lost it. I got up to 140 in 1 1/2 months. I figured out it was because I had gone back on my Zoloft for anxiety, a known cause of weight gain.
Two almost months ago I quit my Zoloft cold turkey and got Wellbutrin at 300 mg. I was able to get down from 140 to 125 in about a week and a half, but most was water weight I think.
I got back my period and all.
The problem is to STAY at 125 I have to work out every day really hard for two hours and eat no more than 1700 calories. I'm 17 years old and I have what seems like NO metabolsim.
I've been to MANY doctors and specialist and one said I should be technically burning 3000 calories a day. I want to be able to stay at this weight (the doctors all agree that I should NOT gain anymore) but I want to be able to enjoy life and eating again. I want to be able to have a bit of an indulgence because I work out so hard.
If I even eat 100 or so calories over I WILL gain weight over night and it'll take a week or so to get it back down to 125 again and even then it might go up 3-4 pounds over night even when I'm not PMSing.
I've had my thyroid checked and my blood checked and it all came back fine. Has anyone else had this problem? Am I stuck starving and working myself for the rest of my life? If so that is NOT a life I want to live anymore. It's to the point where I can't handle it.
It was okay to be gaining when I was 100 some pounds but now I'm on my way to being overweight again. All my weight is muscle but still according to my doctors I should be losing a LOT of weight on this diet.
Please someone who knows about this help me. Please do not tell me oh you need therapy or don't focus on the weight because I do. I have a therapist but at this point it's a health concern even the doctor's say that.