VeraD

It's been just a little over two weeks since my best friend was diagnosed with stage 4 lung & brain cancer. I don't have much more information than that since she cut me off soon after finding out. I am told not to take it personally, but I fear that I have been robbed of the precious gift of time. I understand that every case is different, but if this is a common reaction, what are the odds that people will let their loved ones back in?

I noticed changes in her prior to her diagnosis and the biggest one is her loss of empathy. I couldn't believe some of the things that she said. It makes sense now. I'm also wondering if her brain tumor has affected her ability to have the same connections with people. I do not know the exact location of the tumor, other than it is on "the right side."

I know this isn't about me, but I am struggling terribly. We've always been by each others sides through the good and the ugly. In fact, it seems we've been a source of strength through more of "the ugly" than the good. I'm able to intellectualize this, but my heart is really not accepting her choice to shut me out.