sweetpotato13

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's very grim diagnosis and of course we KNOW that you know that it's not about you, but your feelings are totally understandable. I wish there was something I could say to give you hope that your friend will come around. I can't. You are already grieving a friendship that has meant a lot to you. You feel shut out and I get that. I think you have no choice but, out of love and respect for your friend, you accept her wishes (or the wishes of her illness....who knows how much of this is the brain cancer talking....) but stay in touch as best you can with the people close to her she cannot escape (is she married?). Send her a card or drop off a meal. Find out what she is capable of still enjoying and meet those needs in small ways. Does she still like music? Send a special soundtrack her family can play for her.
Is she still able to read and comprehend? Send a book you know she will like.
NONE of these things will give you back your friendship if your friend is unable to give of herself in this way. But when she does pass, you will know that even when she pushed you away, you kept on loving her. And that is what friendship is all about.