| | A million and one things
Im 17 and I cant remember if I posted in this exact board or not, but since my migraines returned for a while a few weeks ago Ive been going through a very hard time, thinking im dieing from a million different diseases. Although this feelign has generally gone, I'm stil getting alot of symptoms and have had others.
Very light muscle twitching, was very frequent for a few days, the slowed down a bit.
Light cough, went away.
occular migraine, went away.
feeling blood pumping all around my body, still happens sometimes.
Loads of "floaters" in my left eye. Im really short sighted and have had these for as long as I can remember. But they seem to be prominent now, and really annoy me when Im thinking about them.
"Dumb arm". This is weird! Sometimes my left arm feels sort of alien too my body. It can feel pain, I can move it normally, it reacts normally etc. but it just feels "weird". I cant put it any better than that!
Itchy tender scalp. I think I get this all the time too, but Im noticing it alot more now.
Random aching in the head area, like the start of a headache that fades away, or my eyes aching.
Strange diziness that feels like my brain is swilling around inside my head.
Keep thinking Im being clumsy all the time, when usually its something stupid like walking backwards into something I couldnt see.
Keep thinking Im losing my balance, when usually its because in my house I turn really tightly round corners and stuff (sounds strange I know)
Keep feeling Im going stupid, like I can feel my brain rotting away inside my head. The fact i sometime sfind it hard to get the right word when writing difficult stuff for college doesnt help. or if I space out for a few seconds (like everybody does)
As you can see, this is all getting a little too much for me at the moment. Now, ve mentioned it all to the doctor and hes prescribed me mild beta-blockers. They dont work for the fear of anything happening, but they definitly de-tense my body and stop those god damn twitches!
The problem is, everything seems to mimic neuromuscular disorders like MS, and I hate to think Ill get something like that knowing Im only 17. I just find it hard to deal with because on the other hand, I dont notice the majority of symptoms when im with people and not left alone with my thoughts, or engrossed in a movie etc.
I think in the back of my mind I know Im exaggerating things, but I keep thinking Im jinxing myself if I think that, and that it will turn out to be a true disease, and that I should prepare for the worst.
I honestly dont know why ive typed all this, I guess I just wanted to clean everything off my mind and see what people think. By far the most annoying thing are these floaters in my eye. I know my retinas are just fine, and I am heavily short sighted. They dont effect my life but god damn theyre annoying.