Thank you so much. You ARE right. This is the only way I face it. I cant taper, I don't have the willpower at all. I'm worried about tomorrow because I have an appointment in 1:00 and its so important that I be there. I just hope I can pull myself off the toliet long enough to go to it. The runs have already started and Ive downed 4 immodiums...what's the max on those if anyone knows. I have a ton of soma...and phenabarb...does anybody know if that will help in the least. Oh yeah, i have a script for clonidine 1 mg and some nuerontin here now. Any info would help. Oh and I have some Zanaflex which is a muscle relaxant or so im told. Help me out here...thank God for this board.