I love your username.
I'm so sorry that you had to go through traumatic experience. I have extreme trauma in my past, and can tell you that opening up to trustworthy persons is the only way to let it drain out and heal. It makes us sick when we hold it inside. It makes everything we see discolored by the trauma. It is so not fair but it is how the brain works. No matter how far back we shove the subject, it is the lens through which we look at life.
It can take awhile to find the right people to trust with your story, but don't be discouraged. There is no way to know for sure in advance, but if anyone reacts negatively, then you know that isn't a safe person. There is a great book called Safe People, I think. We do need to learn who to trust.
I personally have found psychiatrists to be more into medicating and managing mood, rather than taking hours to listen and walk through my emotions with me to help me learn why I have them. It's not because those doctors don't care, but is because of the limits of that medical discipline.
Over the years I have been seen by psychiatrists and many different counselors. I was always looking for help. But I had the very best therapy with a psychologist. I chose to have two two-hour sessions a week, and I came to know and understand myself better and now I know what I am dealing with in myself. He also helped with providing resources to help myself like books and seminars. He never told me what to feel or try or how to deal with anything. His support increased my confidence that I could live with what happened to me and go on with my life. I have been doing so ever since.
I never did want to live on medications, and with the psychologists help I don't have to. There is no understanding like what we can learn to give ourselves.
More power to you for considering to reach out for help!