Losing friends cause of this. - Acid Reflux / GERD Message Board

Em55 · 12-28-2008, 10:52 PM

so i am really having another down night. Since i have gotten really sick this summer my friends are getting slimmer and slimmer. People ask me how im doing. I wish i could honestly tell them im happy and doing fine. But in reality im terrified of everything happening. I only have one friend who understands that i really am sick and that if im complaining, i just need someone to give me a hug and just listen. How do you guys stay so strong? I try. i have tried to stop complaining and try to just be chippy all the time but thats not me and im tierd of lieing. I am in high school and i know most of them just want to party but i dont understand why known of them can even show true emotion for me.

Just need to get this off my chest and i know on here i wont be "the complainer" when im just saying how i feel. I have lost most of my hope. I want it back.

TEdds83 · 12-28-2008, 11:11 PM

Hi Em55! First of all Big Hugs from me!! You aren't alone. Do you have acid reflux trouble too? I feel like you do to. This is the only place I can come to and vent. People understand me here. You can talk to us here anytime.

I feel like I am pushing people away from me who don't understand acid reflux or anxiety disorder. It's all very real. You can share your heart here in trust us.

Em55 · 12-28-2008, 11:57 PM

Thanks! that is why i joined. I havent been diagnosed yet, a tech that was testing me for asthma said he thought i might have a hiatal hernia or a growth in my chest on top of acid reflex. How you said about pushing people away,, that is what im doing. I just want my friends to listen, not argue, and say what they are really thinking. I have pretty much lost two really good friends within the last two days. Im just scared and they dont understand.

Thanks again

TEdds83 · 12-29-2008, 07:44 AM

Hi Em! Well you have us to talk to. We understand because we are going through the same things. Even though we are all different ages, we have a common bond. We really understand. I understand your fears. I have been feeling rotten all during the holidays. I am waiting for a call from my doctor to have my endoscopy scheduled. I have never had an procedure done before so you can see why I am very nervous. I just keep praying, and have people praying for me. I wish I dealt with physical problems better but I tend to think the worst. Maybe it's because of too many bad TV shows. Thats why I try not to watch the doctor shows.

I hope you are feeling better today. I am sorry about those 2 friends. It's a shame that they can't be more understanding. I hope they will be. Maybe things will change. Hang in there!

Em55 · 12-29-2008, 10:11 AM

Thank you! I will pray for you that your endoscopy will go fine and you wont feel it! Happy holidays!