Re: Scared and need advice
Of course you are....you have every right to be. Symptoms without a cause can be very scarey. Do you mind me asking how old you are an dif you take any other medication, specifically for reducing the worry over this? We all tend to think the worse...but the anxiety and worry can make things worse....it is a vicious cycle. I can relate as can probably many people reading these posts. Chances are, it is not cancer but me telling you that, I know, is of little help right now.......I know when your in the midst of the unknown that only a clean diagnosis will alleviate your worry. I went through a similar scenario in the last two months and had myself in such a state; I succumbed and went to the dr. and, although I didn't want to, told him I needed something to help me get through the waiting period. I have three kids and I absolutely HATE wasting every moment which I know is precious being preoccupied with the what if's. I started taking a very low dose of PAXIL (though there are other drugs as well) and within a few days I noticed the obsessing thoughts of things like what if this is cancer subsiding.......the brain chatter started to go away, and I was able to carry on life while waiting for the tests. Ironically, my other symptoms started to subside as well!!!! My tests all came back normal and I am starting to wean off the medication as I'd rather not be on "another" thing. It's not for everyone, but my point is, the worry and subsequent anxiety you are experiencing in your head and body is not helping the physical symptoms. I have read and listened a lot in the last year to books about "living in the moment" and am starting to slowly realize that what is, is, and what will be, will be.......absolutely no one knows what will happen tomorrow, or in the next minute, or if there will be a next minute, or hour, or day.......and we are amazing creatures that deal with extraordinary things, no matter what! It is really the unknown right now that is freaking you out. If medication is not your thing, then take good care of yourself, exercise to relieve some of this stress, drink lots of water, and try your hardest to stay pre=occupied. If you can, even try repeating things like "I am healthy" or "I am getting healthier" "I am going to be okay", etc to yourself every day and night and whenever you can. THe mind is a powerful tool and that is what is causing you to worry---see if you can't use some of that power to work for you instead of against you, as you await more tests.....
I know, easier said than done. I sincerely hope everything goes well for you and keep us posted.