Dear Charberry, You are not alone, I am right here with you. We could be sisters! I feel your pain. I am SO SORRY about your job situation and all of the financial issues. We are all in this big boat together. This I can tell you, is that God has you in the palm of His hand. He will not let you down and will be faithful to take care of you. That is the bottom line.
I will say that it is hard to feel that when the reality is we feel like we are on a sinking ship. I too am real scared. I lost 10,000 worth of income in 2008. My massage business did that much less. I had to get a job at a local school that pays 11 dollars and hour and would only give me 29 hours a week of work. Thank goodness for my husbands job. But still we can't make the bills. We have been given a Foreclosure notice on our home in Jan. We have lived in this home for 3 years. But we will probably lose it. We can stay until Sept. this year because we got an extension. I have two college age daughters that want to move back home now for awhile to save money. I am afraid I may have to tell them it may be short lived. All this to say is that I just can't take all the stress without it having an effect on my physical body.
My reflux is flaring up in full force now. I have the mucus, thick tight throat, a nagging throat clearing cough, (it keeps my husband awake at night, I am afraid he will leave too) I feel like I can't breathe freely, it sets of panic and anxiety in me. I feel like my life is spinning out of control. I wish I hadn't started eating bad again. This is a HUGE setback for me. lol
I also am blaming alot of things on the perimenopause I am going through which isn't helping matters at all.
I think we should try warm decaf tea's with honey. Anything relaxing to destress us, bubble baths, all the right foods, ...I just don't know what to do. I suck on Tums and cough drops. I don't want to take the drugs for this because of the side effects. Hang in there ok! I am here for you anytime you want to talk. Try not to worry. I will pray that God leads you to a new job. The stresses of financial things and job losses are quite heavy, just know you are not alone.
Have a restful weekend!