xxfallingstar

So it's been years since I've had a swallowing problem, since 2007 to be exact. I've developed allergic asthma in the process, don't know if that's connected, but I got it, plus on top of that I've been dealing with anxiety since my dad's suicide, it all started back in 2007.

However, I'm off meds for like a year now, but still have problems swallowing even though all test showed everything correct, gastroscopy, endoscopy, barium swallow...

I changed my diet drastically, 1st year of my GERD i ate only pudding daily, nothing else, just puddings, i lost 15 kilos or so, thankfully i had some fat so I didn't look to skinny, but my jeans went from 38/40 to 36 now...reason for that was also my anxiety, i kept thinking about 'how food will go down' i remember an evening just trying to eat a toast, i panicked that it got stuck, thats how bad it was.

thankfully later on it got better, i was able to eat solids again, at least to some extent, back to bread and most of foods, but still gummy bears or meat other than chicken or tuna fish I wouldnt eat. Meatballs had to go bye bye for me, so did mcdonalds hamburgers, because once that meat got stuck in my throat, i rushed to ER only to hear 'there's nothing there' but I felt it. Go figure.

However, I began to eat again, even hamburgers later, but swallowing worry/problem never went away, I always ate with a bit of fear and slow.

Then it got so bad i feared to eat when home alone, still do. and when i thought its getting better, now few weeks ago it started again my problems. less severe, but my problem now is when i eat, i keep pushing food along with saliva back to front with tongue when it goes in the back in scare that i have to chew it some more and i make those sounds you know when you stick tongue to your upper wall of mouth and that sound is made? i keep doing that and hacking food back to front to chew more and it irritates me so much, and my family members too, but if i dont do it I feel like i'll choke and a piece doesnt go down smooth, specially eating my favorite sausage with a bagel.

and when you'd think problems are over, I got post nasal drip which makes me cough and snorking/spiting saliva every few min or so, its very annoying and then also TONSIL STONES, it all comes back to those somehow, feeling of food getting stuck in particular...

I was wondering maybe my problem could be that gerd returned? since for a few weeks i ate and went to sleep in afternoon, shortly after, like a few minutes after, could that be the culprit for repeated problems?

Anoyne experiencing same/similar problems?