Ok guy, we are here for you. Firstly, have you seen a dermatologist to assess the severity of your acne? It sounds like you might be at that point by the sound of your post. Without seeing your face, it is hard to know what to tell you. You may be in need of an antibiotic and something topical, or my be an accutane candidate.....it's hard to say here. Understand that although there is no cure for acne, you can 'control" it. B4 you risk permanent scarring, seek medical intervention. I am an oldie here(I'm 41) and have been to derms all my life. When I stray away from my doctors and my interventions, the acne returns.
So at this point, firstly cleanse with something gentle(not aggressive- scrubbing which will aggravate your condition) and try to keep your hands off your face. See your doctor..it may be a very simple regimen for you to follow, but get started. You'll be happy you did. Read these pages and pages of posts for insights, but not cure alls for everyone. I wish you the very best and we are all here for you to see you through every step of the way.