| | please help. my head is gonna explode.
okay. this is the situation for those of you who dont already know it - i was on accutane for 8 weeks, had to stop taking it because my lips were absolutely disgusting - blistered, bubbly, white, thick, and chunky looking, and very sore. i saw my regular doctor cos i couldnt get into my derm till today. everyone said, stop taking the accutane, thats whats doing this. soooo, i stopped taking it for a week, it cleared up somewhat, started taking it again at a lower dose, and i started getting all those awful water blisters again. so i go to a different dr and con them into giving me spiro, saying ive been on it for a while for hirtuism (sp?) and i get that. now i have been on the spiro for about a week at 100mg a day. so, today i see the derm, he thinks its kinda funny that i got so crazy about the accutane ruining my lips, because 99% of people on accutane have dry lips. i say 'ummm, no, my lips werent dry. they were chunking off my face and they felt like they were on fire' he sorta thinks its funny, so tells me i should start retaking the accutane in 3 weeks at a low dose, and he will keep me on it for a longer period of time and that will be fine and dandy. i ask about spiro and androcur. he says spiro is good, but can cause irregular menstrual probs, but if you stick with it, that should go away. he also says androcur is great cos its like diane 35, which worked so well for me, bar the severe depression i got from it, but that you cant take androcur without the pill cos it will seriously screw up your cycle, and you can have continuous bleeding all month. i say 'so? is that a health issue, or just an annoyance factor? couldnt i take the androcur without the pill and just suffer the annoyance? i want clear skin, i will do most anything to have it' hahahaha. yup, sure. he thinks im silly cos most women would go nuts over that side effect. then i say, 'so does the spiro work or what?' and he says 'yes it does, but its not a cure cos you have to keep taking it to see results' im like, i sooooooooo dont care, as long as im clear. anyway, the outcome was - he wants me back on accutane long term. i am scared ****less because that stuff really scarewed my up emotionally with what it did to my lips. really bad. im terrified to take it, even though i loved seeing the great effects i was having in terms of pore shrinkage and blackheads finally lifting away.
soooooooooo, can someone help me? im not sure what to do. i guess i have 3 weeks to decide anyhow, cos i cant start taking it till then cos my lips are still too inflamed. do i risk stopping accutane all together, when i may need to then redo the whole course over, or do i stick with the spiro and give it a good chance?