I'm just basically looking for somewhere to rant lol. I just got home from food shopping (and having my passport photos taken) and I feel really unhappy.
I'm meant to be going to San Francisco early September to see a friend but I keep putting off getting the ticket more and more thinking "My skin will get better soon....." and it's taking forever. I have loads of redmarks from previous zits too - thats the biggest problem at the moment. I'm going to end up leaving it too late to get a ticket
I REALLY want to go but I don't feel confident at all about my skin. My friend over there is telling me I've got to come, and I've got 95% of me saying I've got to go too. But then there's 5% of me that's saying "You can't go with skin like yours. You'll embarass yourself and your friend."
On top of this, I feel so empty and tired because I've hardly eaten anything for two weeks because I'm so scared my skin will get worse if I eat something. I'm so hungry but I'm too scared to eat. All I've eaten the past two days are a couple of apple and lots of fish - but I'm always empty.
I just wish I could be normal and eat whatever and have perfect skin. My friends are always eating bad stuff and they have great skin. I can't imagine having good skin again. If I look in a mirror I think "Wow my skin is not too bad today!" and then I say to myself "But compare it to how your skin would look with no red marks or zits".
I'm so tired of all of this crap - I have absolutely no confidence. Thanks acne.
BTW, the passport photos started all this. They actually aren't too bad but I can see all my red marks especially around my chin (probably because I know where they are).