Re: when will i stop missing my husband
First love was a vendor's in-house rep -- never saw him but spoke to him for 7 years before we agreed to meet. I hated his rushin hands and roman fingers! he apologized, and asked for a second date -- it was worse than the 1st. I called him told him what a jerk he was and he apologized again. He asked for a third chance but this time we were going to his sister's apt to have dinner with her and his best friend who married his sister and became his brother-in-law. My boss said have money and a number for a taxi becuase it could be a setup to get me alone in an apartment. I took his advice but it wasn't necessary -- he was on his best behavior and we had a wonderful time -- I fell in love. He surprised me with a ring 9 months later at a dinner shared with his two sisters and their signifant others, and we were married 11 months later. I had a great 22 year marriage, short that it was and have two wonderful, blessings with my children; 24 and 21.
Now I prayed that god would help heal my heart-ache. After praying and changing it from God, please send me someone I changed it to; God whatever you decree, let me be satisfied and live in your direction but to do it, please help me heal my aching pain. And lo and behold, someone 'winked' at me at a dating site. I met the person at a local restaurant and thought he looked familiar. he is also a widower with a 19 year old son.
turns out that he use to work for my company for 11 years, and we would pass each other in the hall or cafeteria. He remembered my 'thinner' me and I fell in love all over again with this person who is so different from my first.
he's kind, considerate, and caring but all too quiet. But he says he loves me and I know i am head over heels in love with him. So here we are: 12 miles from each other. he knows my company-dynamics and lets me vent on bad days. He has a 19 year and and I have 20 somethings. He is a widower and I am a widow. He's been without his wife for more years than I.
I'm enjoying the moment so to speak. We'll have to see if someday during the future, he asks me to marry him. We can't do anything until we are over 60 due to social security requirements. But I'm praying he'll ask me to move in with him sometime soon. Our kids come first and we both agree that we'd like to try to hold off until they are out on their own, becuase they want to not because we put our selfish need to be together ahead of them being comfortable around one another.
So, there are miracles being performed everyday by someone of a higher power. I happened to be blessed twice in my lifetime.
Last edited by caringsister54; 01-31-2009 at 05:55 PM.