Thank you Index and Free Spirit for the advice. I know I really should go to the doctor because I know it's not just ADD anymore. We don't have insurance at the moment and as soon as I graduate I'm afraid the new insurance will drop me because I'll no longer be depentant. I guess that's why I'm hesitating (along with the fact that I don't like doctors).
I'm quite sure I was diagnosed correctly. There's really no question that I have ADD. The thing is whenever the neurologist asked "can you notice the medicine working? do you notice this? do you notice that?" I never could answer him. Until I watched a video in an education class. This guy was "teaching" a panel of teachers, parents/friends of the LD, school board members, and principals etc about what it's like to be LD. He started talking about how they could be listening to what ever was going on but looking everywhich way...and just as he said that I realized I was looking at all the stuff on the wall. Then I started paying attention and agreeing with all the other things he was describing, the fact that by the time we have the answer to a question the class could have moved on to the next one, and how we feel when teachers demand an answer (the snap and demand thing). I think that's when I really started to notice my symptoms.
I agree that I could be the new and exciting environment that made it feel like it "went away." I work as an assistant administrative assistant and whenever I'm there I always seem to finish my work in a timely and effective manner, but when I get to class it's the opposite. Thing is, it's not like I'm noticing new symptoms it's that I'm finally noticing the symptoms the neurologist was always asking about. Maybe it's because I'm getting older that I'm able to be more aware of it or it could be the recent depression I've been going through (brought on by other circumstances) that has caused me to dwell on it.
Sorry I talked so much. I just want to thank you for your help. I will go see a doctor as soon as it's possible, as I see there's no way to avoid it. Thanks so much again.