I've recently begun to suspect that my 'problem' (this is what I've termed it for a LONG time...so no offense to anyone intended) may be ADD.
I'm 32, a wife and currently a SAHM.
In HS I never really considered my 'symptoms' a problem or that they were what I see in hindsight. I drifted from grade to grade with a C average simply because I never seemed to find my mind on my work. I remember daydreaming my way through most of my classes. Algebra was my worst subject. I never have understood the equations and it seemed well over my head, frustrating me to no end. Which ended up getting me emotional and then I REALLY couldn't function.
In college I changed my major FIVE times. I went to a JR. College. This is about the time I noticed I had a difficult time waking up and an even harder time falling asleep. I have never been able to 'turn my mind off'. It wonders from thought to thought to thought. I never did graduate. I have a lot of credits in a lot of nothing. My best grades being in things that interested me.
After getting married it was the first time I'd been in 'charge' of a home. I had a room at home and one at college, but 'disoranization' seemed to me what a teenager did. But I never seemed to be able to clean right...I still do this to this day. I will begin doing the dishes and see some laundry in the basket and decide to start a load, then I see the trash needs to be taken out and get it out of the can, only to notice the dust in the livingroom, and so on and so forth until at the end of the day I have absolutely nothing accomplished and I'm exhausted! Even when I make a list, I feel almost 'disoriented' trying to accomplish each task.
I always have what I call my 'fuzz' going on in my head. Like there are bees caught up in there trying to get out is the best description I can give. It goes from thought to thought to thought.
There are many projects I've begun around the house that are still waiting for my enthusiastic mood to hit again. I lose patience sooo easily. For which I get frustrated with myself. I get so anxious over every little thing. I feel like 'something' is about to happen that I'm waiting for or something. I'm constantly 'in a hurry'...lol. I laugh for if I didn't I'd cry.
This helped me at work and hurt me at work. I always felt 'extremely' busy when I had ten tasks to do...but I couldn't seem to get them all accomplished during the time allotted and felt stressed when I didn't.
Then I saw a commercial on TV and thought "That sounds a lot like me." I do this with many different commercials because I'm always looking for what could possibly be wrong. I've never gone to the doctor because (please don't think I sound silly) I have feared that I would be told I was lazy, crazy, or that it was 'all in my mind'.
So, now, I've read and read and the more I read some of your stories you've posted and other information elsewhere...I know I'm ready to seek some help. Does anyone have any first hand experience of where to go first? Do you suggest the family doctor or a therapist? A psychiatrist? I realize I need to see a professional and be DIAGNOSED first...I just want to be able to go in as knowledgable as I can. Ty.
Oooh, Ty, you sound so much like me. I finally got diagnosed. The first psychiatrist I went to said I was just lazy and needed a Dr. Phil wake-up call because I did too well in school and couldn't be ADD. So I found another one and asked him on the phone if he handled ADD cases, and he said he did. So I went to see him and he had me diagnosed immediately. I usually have my insurance card ready, but he asked for photo id, too, which threw me for a loop because I had to dig through my completely disorganized purse with him watching and then left my keys in the reception area when I went back. I was very prepared for the second appointment and had filled out a couple different on-line questionnaires. He didn't even need to listen to that.
I will be seeing him again tomorrow (he put in Strattera, which isn't really working, at least, not yet) and will ask about therapists who know about ADD.
So be prepared! Have everything written down. Because with the first guy I didn't have a list and he would ask me questions and I wouldn't remember everything.
Ty for the reply. I'm so glad you found a doctor that would listen to you and diagnosed you. I appreciate the information you have given me. I think the fear of what happened to you with the first psychiatrist is what has kept me from seeking help for so long...and an even deeper fear that it could be true...that I just need to stop being this way and wake up...lol. But the more I read, the more I'm certain now that there are other people LIKE ME! Ty.
You sound SO much like me! I can totally relate to these comments of yours:
Originally Posted by buuuge
I will begin doing the dishes and see some laundry in the basket and decide to start a load, then I see the trash needs to be taken out and get it out of the can, only to notice the dust in the livingroom, and so on and so forth until at the end of the day I have absolutely nothing accomplished and I'm exhausted!...I always have what I call my 'fuzz' going on in my head. Like there are bees caught up in there trying to get out is the best description I can give. It goes from thought to thought to thought.
As far as what professional to begin with, I recommend counseling. I think a long-term relationship with a supportive person to help you sort out what-is-what is invaluable. And, even if "all" you have is ADHD, a counselor can give you help with structuring your life in a way that works for you. They can refer you to an MD with experience in ADD if you need medication. A combined approach is generally more successful than medication alone.
If you are already convinced that you want to start with medication, then you can either consult your family physician or a psychiatrist.
Unfortunately, ADHD/adult ADD is not well- or consistently covered by med. ins. There are gothcas from the gitgo! First, ins. usually covers only ONE "evaluation", which means pretty much just that-- i.e. "counseling" or finding out what to do to get a Dx-- doesn't qualify. An "evaluation" usually has a "screening" part and an interview part; the screening involves various forms that focus on different classical aspects like distractedness, impulsiveness, irrititability, etc; screens also try to see if you might have other related disorders, esp. bipolar, since there are many symptoms in common and treatment can be very different. Since it is important to a Dx whether you have had life-long symptoms, that is a main consideration for interviewing; perhaps your mom or even some evidence from your school grade reports might help to establish (or I guess rule out) that.
Probably more than one evaluation session is needed, so it would help to check on that the evaluation is covered not just one session. Also, it is likely that you will need more than one opinion, because sometimes the doc is not really a specialist in ADD or will Dx another disorder that you might not agree with or whom you have some doubts about!-- and 2nd/3rd opinions might not be covered by ins.-- check that out, too.
It seems, though, that once you get a Dx, then the Rx sessions and meds are covered, because the pdoc must be a real medical doctor (usually a psychriatrist) and Rx evaluation is usually covered, and usually you only need to go to a pdoc once in a while-- maybe more at first to get your meds tuned up, since everybody reacts differently to any given med and hunoz how you will react, so the pdoc will need to see you maybe 2-3 times to get the Rx figured out right.
Groups may or may not be,but usually aren't covered by med. ins., unfortunately-- make sure you check. If they're covered it's probably a $20-$25 co-pay each time you attend, and there's probably a yearly maximum, which is usually 5-10 or so.
If you have more than one disorder, typ. ADD and bipolar, then it might get more complicated, but you probably have had enough of this for now, so just please be careful, check things out in advance, and try to focus focus focus despite all these ins. DISTRACTIONS!!
Ty so much for your reply and the information you provided.
I am beginning to think my anxiety level is going to go to the moon with just trying to find someone to find a diagnosis...lol.
Edititing to add: I don't mean to sound whiney...I just feel like I've finally found something the seems to have all of my symtoms, it has a NAME, and now I feel like I've come upon a stumbling block I didn't anticipate...I'm not good at being patient ..lol.