? about anxiety i think or what - ADD / ADHD Message Board

happyfillmore · 07-05-2004, 09:41 PM

Couldnt find a anxiety board so i posted here sorry

Ok i want to tell you my story and if u could tell me if they symptoms are of anxiety.

Ok on june the 14th i had called a escort i dont know why but i did just to see what would happen i guess.

She came to my house and we talked and she started stripping and then gave me oral with a condom on.

Now during this session she came down hard on the condom once but it didnt break and i didnt notice anything unusual.

I took the condom off and it didnt break cuz i didnt see anything broken and i threw it away altho i didnt really inspect it.

The next day i told my dad cuz i was kinda upset about what i did and that whole day my hands were shaking bad.That night i saw my cousin and he said i was gonna get aids.
So i went home and layed in my bed and it felt like my stomach was eating my insides.
So i ran to my computer and looked up hiv symptoms and boom there it was.

Stomach pain the next day i slept all day and didnt want to get outta bed i felt sick and exhausted and couldnt do anything.Then 3 days later which i think was friday yeah friday i finally got outta bed to help my dads friend move.

I was lightheaded couldnt eat all those days and was ligh headed friday as well.So i helped him anyway lifting stuff.

That night i went to work i work 11:30pm to 7:30am friday and saturday security in a abondoned building.

When i wa at work i started having ubelieveable muscle pain in arms in left calf.I started to cry cuz i saw that muscle ache was hiv related.I fell asleep and woke up shaking like i was cold and put the heat on and fell asleep again.

Then i woke and went home tired and sick and knew i had to go to the hospital.So i went to er and told the doc the story and he said he would give me a std test via schwab in the uerthra but i didnt need a hiv test becuase theres no way i coulda caught it that way.

So i agreed and they did the schwab.The next night was my b-day on saturday the 19th.Again i slept all day and my cousin came bye and said do you wanna go out.At that time my sister showed up with her kids and i didnt want to go near them cuz i thought i would get them sick.So i went out light headed sick and tired.I had a few beers went home upset three hours later layed in my bed and felt a unbelievable tingle around my waist and on my groin and i couldnt get erect no matter how hard i tryed.(I tryed to cuz i figured lack of blood flow to penis)

I flew up to er crying and they said again its my nerves or the drinking and that my std test was negative.

I couldnt accept it and got a reguler doc for a physical and told her the story and she did a hiv test (to ease my mind)and a thyroid test (both were negative.)

So i went to hospital again cuz i had muscle pain all on left side of body and a sharp pain inbetween my knee and a lump there like a bruise.The hospital again said u dont have hiv u sprained it or puled something.

Now im getting agravated and i get pain on kneecap to the touch on top and calf is still tight my kneck ached then dissapeared a hour later weird i thought but passed it off and said i was fine.

Then at my sisters i still couldnt eat and felt a unbeliavable pain like someone squeezing my groin but passed it off as nerves still fearing i had hiv i didnt want to go home so i decided to sleep at my grandmas 30 miles away.

So i got in my car and headed up there at around 1:00am On the way i felt the groin pain againa and decided i would go to er up there to get another hospital idea on things so i went to the er and the doc said i was becoming mental and it wasnt hiv it was all stress and nerves.And i dont need to test anymore im crazy etc.

Then i started noticing red dots on my thighs (ingrown hairs or pimples)
And had a apointment last wedensday and went to doc she checked my knee and the dots and confirmed in grown hair and my knees were fine no fluid at all etc and told me test results.

Still concerned i went home slept but evertime i wanted to get up i was tired heres a example.

Go to work 11:30pm get dont at 7:30am slept from 8:00am to about 6:00pm and tired.

So went to er again and talked to like the tenth doc and he said it wasnt hiv it was my nerves i told him preety much everything and he tested me for mono and it was negative.

Now here i am heres a list of the symptoms.

Muscle aches back mostly left leg some right leg a little that come and go

pain in my abdomen are that come and go

diheria drymouth like im thirsty outside when i felt nervouse i got a cold feeling on my shoulders but no sweat i dont think.

nightmares

unable to eat and sometimes when i try like i dont wanna swallow the food

tiredness constant yawning

Dont wanna stay at home and want to stay away from my computer cuz i keep looking at hiv stuff.

lightheaded blury vision hard focusing first week

tingley feet and hands

noticing like i had a rash that dissapeared in like ten minutes small on my hand

clearing my throat sometimes like flemy.but then dissapeares

all docs said my throat looked a little red all these three weeks.

Feeling scared and depressed.

afraid to be near family and home.

thinking but not sure like a cut healing thinking it shoulda healed quicker ?

what do you think about all this ?

is it hiv im very scared and cant fuction every day and dont know what to do.

Every one in the hiv boared says im crazy but why huh its been three weeks and it seems the muscle aches are gone what is going on with me my stomach sounds squishy when i go to the bathroom too.

apinecone · 07-07-2004, 09:24 PM

I can see why you are very concerned and why you suspect some kind of auto-immune problem, and I think you might be right BUT I hasten to qualify that by saying that it sounds like the symptoms are more consistent with some kind of reaction to an auto-immune system infection like strep, staph, mononucleosis, or possibly a range of them in this 'family', possibly which 'triggered' a related problem that was hanging around your auto-immune system: for example, pyroluria and candida can be low-level but can generally reduce auto-immune levels such that a strep, staph, mono-type infection can be 'easier' to get, esp. during, well, you know

:

[OK, I probably wouldn't have said this unless there was a post like yours, but one time as a result of a major french kissing session

, I got this major sore throat which wasn't mono but was from strep.]

Years later, I find out that my history is most consistent with PANDAS, which in more severe forms causes 'affective' OCD, AD[H]D, rheumatic fever, scarlet fever, rheumatic fever, etc. Various people in my family, esp. those I grew up with have various related problems, because of the lack of prompt and proper medical care with antibiotics, which are now commonly done and so these are much less prevalent today but can happen. We all have various flareups; for example, I had a major one after getting a staph infection while fixing a boat and getting rotting wood splinters in my knee [that took me down for about 10 days [I felt pretty dead for the first 3-5 daze but managed to stay out of the hospital, but barely-- my Doc was very concerned, since I had gotten a flare up from some hornet stings on the soccer field a couple of months before that and the strep skin infection was taking unusually strong meds to knock down.]

So, the bugs in these families can hang around and really rile your system up-- and they work in gangs!! Essentially, your body's antibodies start thinking your body itself is invading itself and it is!!-- really insidious, but there you have it.

It is likely that a GP MD will not be very familiar with these in specialist terms. In particular, strep, pyroluria and candida are in this category, and have muscle/joint soreness and GI-related symptoms but also have readily available tests. So, keep at trying to pin this down, esp. while you have active or recent symptoms, because the bugs go hide and simple tests can look negative, esp. simple throat swabs for strep. However, there are apparent 'markers' in blood tests (although specialized-- in the $50-$100 range), such as strepto- or pyrro- related.

If practical try to find an infectious disease or auto-immune system disease specialist, if necessary even a Pediatrician, because these maladies most often affect children rather than adults, although they do flare up in adults, and do ask around in other boards related to these kinds of infections. Best wishes!

sheezle · 07-07-2004, 11:22 PM

This is how ocd starts..go to the ocd boards. these unwanted thoughts and fear can trigger the onset of ocd..your adrenal gland respondS when under stress these symptoms could also be the extra amounts of cortisol from the adrenal glands because of the stress. Best thing to do is rationalize with yourself the odds of u contracting something through oral sex with condom on...VERY RARE..EASIER SAID THEN DONE i KNOW BUT ITS BEST..IF YOU HAVING DISEASE WAS UP FOR BETS IN VEGAS i WOULD PUT EVERY PENNY i HAVE ON THE FACT U DON'T HAVE AIDS...GOOD LUCK..AND I GUESS YOU WONT BE DOING THAT AGaIN...LOL

brainf0g · 07-08-2004, 02:43 AM

Just to inform you so you can calm down some. HIV isn't an easy disease to catch. Along with that, it's difficult to get HIV from oral sex. And since you said that you used a condom, it's as close to zero% chance as you can get. Well, besides not doing it in the first place.

Get your generalized anxiety disorder treated as well.