Jess75

Hi,
If it makes you feel any better I'm almost in the SAME boat as you! Although I AM trying and I'm still BARELY passing. I'm 29 y/o and was actually diagnosed with ADD a little over a year ago...I was prescribed meds and took them for a month and quit cause my little ego wouldn't let me. I would say to myself, "NO, I don't have ADD!" and went through schooling this last year and here's the story....Right now I'm in Nursing 101 and it requires SOOOOO much organization and memorization that I'm BARELY passing. I took 2 classes each sememster to get the other classes out of the way like all the biologies,chemistry, english, math, bla bla bla, and it took me 2 years to do that, slowly. I guess ANYONE that has a brain would do well taking it THAT slow without working and having alot of time right? I'm beginning to think that school isn't for me, but how the heck am I supposed to survive with a 2y/o daughter if something were to happen to my husband and I? I can't rely on HIM soley? And I also can't support us being a waitress(used to do that for 8 years). Well, I could probably get by waitressing by the skin of my teeth, but who wants that. I want to be a nurse, darn it! Well now that I'm in this class, I want to cry everyday and I can't remember anything. I just got my 2nd exam back and I got a 62%! and I was SOOO upset. I didn't mention how I frequently misplace items, daydream, have a bad memory, etc etc. Well, I was just recently put on Ritalin, and I'm kinda embarassed about it. I was real embarassed about my grade and felt the "need" to tell my instructor that I have a problem so she didn't think I was so called "lazy".lol Well, it took every cell in my body to get the nerve to tell her but I did. Did I feel stupid? Yes. I'm not sure if I even have ADD, maybe I'm just forgetful. Although a therapist was totally sure. So your problem is procrastination? Are you on Straterra? Maybe you need to switch meds? Procrastination can be a problem with me, but the PROBLEM is with that test, is I DIDN'T procrastinate! I figured you may wanted to hear my story too, I hope. I don't really know what to say about perhaps helping with your motivation except just getting up and DO it ya know. I 've been in and out of college since I turned 20y/o, and before this attempt, I used to do the same thing now that I think about it, I used to procrastinate till the LAST minute and I would be up all night the night before drinking a pot of coffee and pulling a C the next day. Why can't I do that now? Maybe it was the coffee, LOL, that stimulated my brain. Cause before ritalin, I drank a lot of green tea(still do) and that actually calmed me bacause it has theanine in it which is an amino acid that tends to relax you. Maybe I was TOO relaxed, ya know, maybe it was the green tea, LOL. I dunno. I'm not the hyperactive add, although I do get antsy at times but who doesn't. I want to finish school too and it's so hard! Talk to ya later!