ecrad17

Let me start off by saying that I'm 27 - I work full-time, along with going to school full-time, oh and the 2 kids - can't forget them Needless to say, I have a lot going on.

In my childhood my teachers always said that I didn't live up to my potential. I constantly skipped homework or didn't finish it. I lacked a lot of motivation to do well, not for lack of smarts though. I frequently got in trouble for "attention grabbing" acts. I remember stealing stuff out of multiple student's desks in 2nd grade for no other reason than I felt like it. I was constantly waiting until the last minute to complete papers and projects, because I couldn't focus on them.

After having my first child I experienced an increase in anxiety and depression. I was put on Lexapro, Effexor XR, citalopram, and Prozac - all of which I maxxed out on dosing. They worked for a little while, but it seemed that the symptoms continued to return. I have been given xanax for acute anxiety attacks, which I use maybe 1-2 times a week. Even after .5mg I still feel anxious, but it does help some.

I constantly procrastinate with paying bills (if they get paid at all). Projects at work hardly get done unless they are challenging and even then I usually don't completely finish them because another task pops into my head and I move on to it before completing the first one. I have issues with organization, as much as I want to stay organized or try to make a plan I always end up failing. My house looks like a wreck even though everything has it's righful place I just can't seem to motivate myself to clean or do laundry. I have a very short temper and get angry over the simplest of things, sometimes I don't even know what is making me upset. I can't stand people in my personal space or touching me, even if it's just a hand on the shoulder, it immediatly gets me going. I over eat which I think is because it gives me something to do. I always have to be doing more than one thing, playing with my phone while watching a movie or out to dinner. I have a hard time sitting still without changing positions or moving my feet. I answer people before they can finish what they're saying and I have a real difficulty with being patient. Oh, did I mention that I have a tendancy to ramble ?

I'm worried because I have been doing poorly now that I'm in my college classes and I feel overwhelmed with the amount of work that I have, yet I can't seem to study or organize a schedule that would allow me to. I manage two physician offices and I can't seem to get through anything that involves me concentrating for a long period of time. I have had a failed marriage and many relationships that I blamed myself for. In the past I just attributed everything to my type A personality and need for perfection, but after researching ADHD for my boyfriend I realized that many of the traits resmebled me and my actions.

I want an honest opinion from someone who knows about ADD if my symptoms fit.