Re: Does ADDERALL kill creativity?
Any thoughts? Oh my, I have too many thoughts.
First post here, and I think you (along with many others) have managed to put my thoughts to writing for me.
I had a DifEq exam this morning, for which I studied extensively. I got to the exam, and there were two properties of a laplace transforms I *know* for a fact I studied, and I *know* for a fact I could recall from memory. But, I couldn't recall them from memory... (or could I? Guess I'll find out.)
It's not just studying and taking exams though, it's also much more mundane things than that. As I've seen many people post, sometimes when I'm on my Adderall (which, by the way I take a 20mg XR once each day when i wake up along with a 150mg Wellbutrin to aid in the 'crash' and make it feel like it lasts all day) I'll be in mid sentence, and without even realize that 6 words down the line I don't know what to say, I get there and have no idea what I'm talking about. But it's worse than that, sure the Adderall helps me focus, I can listen attentively to people now, it's great! However, sometimes after looking in someone's eyes while they speak I still have no idea what they said by the time they get to "...but what are your thoughts on that?"
Sounds like we're a lot alike, though. Not sure how old you are now / what year in college, but I'm 20 and a 3rd year Math Major. When I was in high school, I never felt like I had to do much to get A's. All my homework was done during class, I rarely had to do anything outside of school. When I got to RIT however (started to notice this in APs as well) I had no idea what to do to succeed, since the classes were actually difficult and couldn't appear in my mind do to logic and common sense. So, like you, I had to turn my life around (we'll skip some in here, it took me a year longer than you)
Since the beginning of September I have taken my meds every day without fail. (yay!) I have definitely noticed a difference in motivation (wellbutrin) and focus in class (adderall), but like you I'm starting to wonder if there are other things going on also. The obvious lack of hunger is plenty... I'm not sure if taking the adderall is really worth the other side affects piled on top.
Here are what I've been noticing about myself, if you say "me too!" to any of them, let me know and I'll elaborate, maybe we can help each other.
Anyway... whether it's the adderall that is doing all this is plenty up in the air, but all of the below I've managed to link to it in some way.
-Memory loss (not long term, just new stuff that I try to commit to memory. I can pump out mad work, but retention can lack)
-Mood Swings (little things, sometimes i don't even know what, can send me into a temporary depression, until I manage to get myself out by reading, writing, or the best possible scenario of laughing)
-Loss of Appetite (duh)
-ironically, i can't remember the other couple things i was freaking out about an hour ago, ill post back if you found this helpful.
Hopefully I didn't steal any of your thunder, I think there's a chance that I can get some help from trying to help you, there's still a TON for me to learn about myself.
Digression/Refocus/Digression/Re-Refocus is now over... for now...