Born2bewild, yes the focusing thing is "confusing"lol
Ok let me say some more ummmmm lets see I don't know where to start.
In 1st and 2nd grade I did so good at everything, but the 3rd grade came and it was just awful. My grades dropped, I never could get up for school. My mom and dad weren't much help or you can say they were too much help. They thought I was just being lazy and they would get mad and then just end up doing my homework. My parents, my teachers, never put two and two together. I was smart but I just couldn't comprehend anything that I read. I would read the chapter over and over and the next day take the test and fail.
I dropped out in 9th grade, I felt it was a waste of time. After you fail so many times and you know you studied and tried to pay attention as much as you could dropping out seemed to be the best thing. I kept trying every year until the 11th then just gave up. One of my biggest problems are noises, If someone is chewing gum or food I can't get passed it. The noise will drive me insane and I can't focus on anything but that specific noise. When someone is talking to me it seems like I am listening but really I am all over the place. Thinking about stuff from the past, wondering what perfume they have on, or just Nothing at all. I can't sit through a movie, all I do is sit there and wonder when it will be over (even if I love the movie).
My boss would give me jobs to do and by the time I got to my desk they were gone, I would not remember one thing. Well the list goes on and on.
Maybe the Adderall is working and I just am not paying any attention lol......I do have two boys 3 and 1. They keep me pretty crazy. But atleast now on the meds I will get up and play with them.
About the Prozac, I have been on and off of it since my dad killed himself when I was 17, I am now 29. I am not depressed anymore (not that I know of).
So the last couple years I have been on the prozac for so called PMS. Then my pcp had me wean off the prozac and start the wellbutrin. I felt like I was going to rip things apart I was so irritable so I started to take the prozac again. Then went to another doctor.
I will write more soon.........Stacy
[This message has been edited by sweetnsour (edited 09-18-2003).]
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