treulove

I am a 42 year old woman who has been off Adderall for over 3 years. I am just so upset that I can't get back to my normal self. I was on Adderall a little over a year, and of course I was Wonder Woman. My husband asked me to get off of it as I wouldn't quit cleaning lol... I laugh about it but really I just want to be the person I was before Adderrall. I have no energy, no drive, and have never returned to the person I was before I chose medication for focus, and to actually complete tasks. I would be happy to be the loud, hyper, fast paced cleaning machine I used to be even though tasks were not always completed. Im afraid those days are gone forever and am so unhappy with my lazy, unfocused, unmotivated self that I feel like I should get back on the Adderall. My husband used to tell me to quit cleaning...now I just get the bare minimum done and the slanted look from hubby like "what did you do all day"... I guess my question is: Is their any known information that adderall changes a person permanently after coming off of it? I was a mess before adderall but had a lot of energy, I was PERFECT on adderall atleast in my own mind, and now I am neither person