The weirdest dream... - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

Healthyhealer · 05-10-2003, 07:35 AM

I wake up and I am in my old bedroom. The one I used to sleep in as a kid (well up to the age of 16 and before I was doing any drugs). Its morning and I think I have been out the night before. I look in my wallet and find a little pouch of cocaine. I spread it out on my bedside and rack up three juicy lines. I'm not sure exactly what happens next but I must leave my room and come back and my dad is writing something on the computer in my room (which was only in that position for about a month when my dad was in hospital having an operation on his back and was away for a week). My sister is dictating to him and my mum is cleaning around the room.

I think ****! and am struck with fear! And look at the lines on the bedside but no one has noticed them so I edge over to that corner of the room. I try and blow all the white dust away but its so difficult to remove its almost glued on. I think I've done a good job and go upstairs. I run upstairs and after a while I hear shouting and my sister comes up and says oh dear you are in big trouble so I head back downstairs to my room and my dad is asking what the F*** that powder is. I try and make out that it is sugar whilst trying to blow it away more but he's not believing it.

Then Marek (A friend of mine that I have known only a couple of years, and after I lived in that house) appears behind my shoulder. He says, 'hey whats all the fuss about there's plenty to go round, and if there isn't we'll get some more tonight.'

My mum then seems excited by this prospect and questions the likeliness of us being able to score some tonight. My dad remains unimpressed but somewhat appeased and not shouting out.

Any comments thoughts?

Just a quick note: My sister always wanted to stop me doing drugs, though she did what I did before me.

Marek is a crazy partier and I have had many mad nights out with him, though non have been drug related. I know Marek has only done coke before but it wasnt with me.

My dad always used to say to me if he ever found out I did drugs he would kick me out the house and not want to know me.

Anyone make any sense of the dream???

Yesterday I definitely wouldn't ve wanted any Charlie but in the dream I was desperate for some and now my mum *condones* it...I am a little tempted. (Hey this doesnt mean I am going out looking for any tonight eh.)

Risky Business · 05-10-2003, 09:32 AM

Healthy: Sometimes I feel like I am the king of odd/real/nightmare/ dreams. Dreams have been analyzed and from my understanding there are no set meanings for one or more episodes of dreams. Edited---Healthy, I must apologize...after re-reading the dreams post, I realize that my my dream prom is not the same as yours. Yours is pertaining to what relevelance to addiction if I understand. My are about being disturbed about the ultimate end.

I am only speaking from my own experience. But my fear of death has intruded most of my dreams. My Grandmother just passed away and 2 nights later I dreamed we were having a conversation at the dining table. It was so vivid. All mine are.

I am not sure I care for these dreams at all because of the unknown purposes of them. There are many who say they have no real meanings and that it is just my subconscious causing them. I am not so sure.

The next night I had a dream where I was physically patting my first cousin on the back in disbelief because he had been killed in a tragic car wreck many years ago.

In conclusion, I feel that there may be a higher being, spirit who is interrupting my dreams. There are many books about dreams and many beliefs. I happen to believe that dreams do have a significant meanings.

I could write a book on how disturbing some of the dreams I have had...But I will spare you today. Most of them are diseased friends, family, who seem to be trying to communicating with me. Does this mean I may be near my end? Who knows? It sure sends vibes my way.

Dreams can be very different and there can be many different ideas about what they mean. I have heard that dreams are important so that we work out complex subconconscience thoughts in the spiritual realm.

For some dreams are just dreams and I respect that also. May peace be with all,

Risky Business

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Robinsegg · 05-10-2003, 09:35 AM

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Originally posted by Healthyhealer:
I wake up and I am in my old bedroom. I look in my wallet and find a little pouch of cocaine

Any comments thoughts?

Anyone make any sense of the dream???

Yesterday I definitely wouldn't ve wanted any Charlie but in the dream I was desperate for some and now my mum *condones* it...I am a little tempted. (Hey this doesnt mean I am going out looking for any tonight eh.)

NO! You are NOT going out and looking for any tonight! Want me to kick somecyber butt?!

Actually your dream was about ME. You took my bad thoughts last night and made them yours! LOL Thank you so much Healthyhealer

I'm here this morning CLEAN!! Not without incident though, will explain in another thread asto not steal your limelight

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Healthyhealer · 05-11-2003, 10:38 AM

Thanks Robin and RB.

My mate thinks the dream is about me wanting to tell my parents, and looking for their approval. The significance of my old bedroom being a time of innocence pre drugs, and that now that I am passed that I have almost gone back to that state. I do remember a bit more of the dream in that the reason why I leave after racking up was because I genuinely didnt want any!!

Cheers guys