Quitting Ecstasy... - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

EAddict · 05-11-2003, 08:47 AM

I'm a 30-something male who is an occassional user of E (maybe once every month or two), and I've realized recently that every time I use it, I just end up acting like a E-tard, doing stuff that I regret later. It also makes me paranoid and I "hear voices" of people making fun of me, and I feel embarassed to show myself at the same club again.

I don't think I'm physically addicted to it, since I don't do it that often, but whenever I go out and I don't take E, I don't feel like I have fun. I guess I'm kind of shy, so I rely on E to become social. When I don't take it, I miss the feeling of "wildness and craziness".

Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can go out and have fun without using E as a crutch? I like to dance, but again it's not the same without E. I don't like to drink alcohol, so that's not really an option...

Thanks,
E-Addict

Autumn Angel · 05-11-2003, 09:44 AM

Drinking alcohol might be alot safer that popping E. Any mood enhancing substance can be addicting and dangerous.
I used the be the same way when I was in my 20's I couldnt have fun or be "un shy" at a club without a few drinks. A few drinks turned to many "few drinks" and I was always sick the next day. I always remembered what I did but it wasnt worth the empty wallet and the hangover the next day.
I touched a drink in 4 years and even when I did drink the last 10 years before I quit it was only one or 2 and I was still sick so I just quit. People that dont like you for who you are arent worth knowing. You might not be physically addicted to the E yet but the mental addiction is there thinking you cant have a good time without it is an addiction of its own. Please try going to the club without it once and see how you do, you might do great who knows. But before it becomes a REAL problem you need to consider stopping it altogether it only takes ONCE to overdose or get some bad stuff. God bless and take care.
Autumn.

Healthyhealer · 05-11-2003, 10:46 AM

I know where you are coming from. E is a very very weird drug. It makes you terrible paranoid and the come downs are terrible.

It is possible to have a good time without it you need to find it. Having a good group of friends will help.

You say E makes you more social as it does, but if fyou off sent the feeling of paranoia against that you become a blubbering wreck worried to talk to anyone, including people you are close to (IE your real friends) and you get very paranoid.

This was a problem for me, as I stayed of pills for two or three years because I just loved the dance scene, and house music so much, that when I tried dropping wasnt the same without it. I used to be able to go clubbing on 4 cans of red bull and love it so much, I'd still be dancing way after the pillheads were filling up the chill out area monging and gurning their heads off. Then pills changed that. It has taken a while, but now I can go clubbing again on red bull and a coupla beers but it isn't the same.

You need to try and go clubbing without the pills and see how it affects you. go and enjoy the music. Its very difficult I know because drugs are so interellated with the industry.

Hope you do well.

Autumn Angel · 05-11-2003, 01:23 PM

Hey HealthyHealer...Red Bull is that energy drink right? I drank it everyday when I was visiting MO last summer but I find out they dont sell it here in Canada something about some ingrediant in it being illegal? Too bad because its great stuff and I highly recomend it for an energy boost.

Autumn.

Healthyhealer · 05-13-2003, 06:00 AM

Yes indeed Autumn, Red Bull is the energy drink that comes in a blue and silver can and is the controversial product that sparked off a load of spinoffs such as red rooster and power horse.

In Sweden it is illegal to serve someone a vodka and redbull yet in Switzerland and Belgium the Red Bull there is far superior in terms of the drugs it has in it. Here in England we have a slightly moderated 'good for you red bull' though every can does contain 200% RDA of Caffeine!!!