The Hardest Thing to do...... - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

Risky Business · 05-13-2003, 10:34 AM

Dear Members: I have always been against suicide. Still, the past 5-7 years has been the hardest the thing for me. Fighting pain everyday seems so unbearable.

Even harder is knowing that there is no magic to stop intractable pain. I do NOT mean to say I would ever think of taking my life. I just feel that my body cannot take much more.

Has anyone else felt this way. To feel this way, in my opinion, means that quality of life has diminished so much that living becomes a chore. I probably sound pitiful. I feel pitiful. I pray almost everyday and night for God to lift the pain from my body.

But in the end, I wish to say that we can make it with each other. All you wonderful friends and members I know you have it rough also. You all are always on my mind.

May Peace be with you all,

Risky Business

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Hopefortoday · 05-13-2003, 10:58 AM

Risky, my husband attempted suicide in January 2001 and I know has thought about it a lot too. Your life is so special and God loves you. I hope you find relief from your pain and continue to want to live.

Robinsegg · 05-13-2003, 11:26 AM

RB.....my buddy.....do you want tears in these big brown eyes again?!

Have you traveled every road to end/control your pain? Is there not SOMETHING out there that will end/control it?

Suicide? Is it the body conviencing the mind or the mind conviencing the body? Pity potty.....oh yea.....I know her all too well

Now get off her and give me a great big cyber hug {{{{{{{{{Riskybusiness}}}}}}}}} I, for one am very greatful for you.

If I could, I'd wish your pain away.

Risky Business · 05-13-2003, 11:33 AM

Thanks Robinsegg and Hope: Unless I get even worse I would never think of taking my life. No Robinsegg, please keep your cheery attitude and please do not be upset about me.

I have dealt with this before and it comes in phases. I love life, I just do not like being tormented by pain. Of course, I am sure no one does,

Thanks Friends,

Risky Business

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Healthyhealer · 05-14-2003, 03:48 AM

Hang in there RB, you are a good person and good things will happen to good people.