Re: adderall abuse
I can relate for sure.
When you say you feel "like crap" most of the time, what do you mean? Depression? Fatigue? Low self-esteem? What does the Adderall do for you specifically that makes you want to abuse it?
Stimulants can be safe and effective when used responsibly, but they can also make mental health problems much worse when abused. If you're not able to regulate your use of Adderall, it's not the right drug for you and will eventually ruin your life just like meth or any other street drug.
I've never tried Strattera or any of the other non-stim meds, but it's worth a shot if this is the alternative.