My skin is crawling... - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

Brettfish · 06-16-2003, 06:22 AM

3 weeks into this and every monday i feel like hell! My skin is crawling this morning..im weak..damn i dont even feel like writing this!!

Hopefortoday · 06-16-2003, 07:57 AM

Brett . . . just know that you're not alone. I wish there was an overnight cure for getting clean, but it's a process that takes a lot of time.

You're in my prayers.

Brettfish · 06-16-2003, 08:47 AM

Thanks Hope...and i know im not alone...but its not easy sitting here. I just wanna go back to the beach!!! Its the only place i feel alive right now lately! Everywhere i look in my house, here at work..all i remember are the drugs...lining up 10 percocets and just staring at them for an hour before eating them. Or snorting lines of heroin right here off my desk..or in the bathroom all day. Its terrible..the drugs are chasing me after i chased THEM for 2 years!! Other than that sh*t EVERYTHING is in pretty good order in my life other than the financial burden i've put on myself..but that can be dealt with easier than this. Im having a pity party for myself today...i thought i'd be past this. AT LEAST im not busting out in tears at every little thing...so i guess im getting better..

Philster2003 · 06-16-2003, 10:09 AM

Brett hang in there, it slowly and I mean slowly gets better. You've come this far, just hang in there. The gains are small each day so it's hard to notice the improvement but you are improving each day, trust me. Soon you will look back and see how far you have come and how good life is now. Be strong, my prayers are with you, you will succeed!

phil

Brettfish · 06-16-2003, 11:29 AM

Words i really needed to hear today Phil...thanks!!