Back to square one.. - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

Brettfish · 07-14-2003, 01:28 PM

Its been a while since i've been here..not that long..but too long for me..i thought i had won the battle. Well..i've been on and off for the last couple of weeks..and its killing me again to admit it to anyone. Other than one friend who helped me detox..noone knows i've relapsed. The thing is..since my first relapse..i'll go 5 days or more without..and then back on for 2 then off for 5 or 6 then back...just a constant circle. Im sick of being sick..i've been reading here to help and all over the net trying to get myself well...but the only thing that seems to help is coming clean on the board..and getting support from others. I just cant tell my family and handle thier shock and confusion as well as my own depression..too much. Anyway..i'd like to say hey to those who helped me before..and im gonna be posting again as i give it another shot.

Brett

lane71501 · 07-14-2003, 01:47 PM

hey brett-
welcome back!
laney

Brettfish · 07-14-2003, 01:57 PM

Thanks Laney...like my addiction, i wanted to leave this place behind..i guess i just left to soon.

timsworld73 · 07-14-2003, 02:28 PM

Brett...its been a while since I have seen a post from you. Let be honest...I think it is a good idea that after you get clean you stick around the board. It helps me a great deal to be able to talk with and help out people going through what I had went through. I was going to NA meetings, but they were not for me. Everyone is different and NA works for alot of people, I just feel more comfortable coming on this board. Its alright to fail, as long as you try again, right. Welcome back.

Hopefortoday · 07-14-2003, 04:22 PM

Brett . . . I'm glad you're back. My husband's DOC is Oxycontin and he's been fighting it for 5-6 years. He was actually clean for almost a year and a half and has been doing exactly what you're doing since October. He says he gets to day 5 of the withdrawals and has to use again. He came clean this weekend with me and his sponsor and is ready to try and get sober again.

His doctor started him on SUBOXONE today. You might want to check this out. There's a lot of info. on the Internet and check to see if there's an addictionologist in your area who can prescribe this. It's supposed to help with WDs and cravings and (I think) replace the opiates you've been taking. Almost like an anti-depressant. Anyway . . . hang in there and God bless you!