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whatever63 · 07-15-2003, 10:47 AM

Thank you PHIL and OKIE for responding so quickly to my post! Your advice was so true...I know I am headed for a train wreck and that I can jump off right now with little or no problems! Funny how this denial thing works...one part of me is saying "give it up now, you can do it!" and the other part is saying "oh just two more won't hurt!"!! (kinda like the angel/devil thingy...LOL!)

I thought I would be okay after my last script ran out, but then hubby hurt his knee and got some more and he didn't want them so guess who got them..ME! He knows something is wrong as I have been dropping him suptle hints, but is willing to let me do it my own way knowing I am the stubborn little woman he married! I have 11 pills left in this script and I am planning to gradually wean myself off them and not get any more! Any advice??? Do you all really think it won't be as bad as some of the posts I have read? I have already experienced some side effects such as very mild leg cramps, headache and neck stiffness...oh and I get soooo cranky!!!! I am thinking the hot baths and lots of walks sounds good...also I will be buying a coloring book and some crayons (LOL! That has helped ease tensions in the past...might work for some of you all too!!!)

I also have been taking Xanax (0.25mg a day) for the last 14 years and I KNOW I am addicted to that...but it was prescribed for a severe anxiety/depression problem dealth with since my teen years and I have NEVER abused them...thankful to have them so I can live my life fairly normal! Anyways...I do have them to take if the withdrawals make me too edgy...does that sound okay? I am a smoker too...that's one demon I've never had luck with, but who knows! Also was wondering if any of you knew if taking vicoden made you gain weight and why?? I have gained weight over the past year and not sure if it is the age thing (I'm 40!)or the vicoden...never much appetite though, but drink alot of soda!!

Well, I have rambled...but needed this! Thank goodness I found this board...I will check back later! Everyone take care and get outside today...smell the fresh air, walk barefoot in the grass and thank God for this thing we call LIFE! TC!

okieatheart · 07-15-2003, 11:09 AM

I forgot about the coloring thing...I liked it to!( i have 4 kids so if someone catches me...oh..the kids were just in here lol!)
Even if you aren't able to taper going off 6 a day should only bring mild w/d's(don't hold me to that though!) If you have ANY questions,just post them!!! All the symptoms you talked about sound definetely like w/d's...>=not fun but won't kill ya!REALLY!!!! Take care!

CoreyP · 07-15-2003, 11:24 AM

Hey,

I am on my 5th day without pills. I feel pretty good today. I all of a sudden realized I was going to run out of pills. I took one half of a pill every day for a week. I felt some bad withdrawals. But I think if I had taken one half of a pill for 2 weeks. I would of been fine. I am not a dr of course. But I still think if you have the will power to do this, it will make the withdrawals very manageable. Good luck. CP.

mike99 · 07-15-2003, 01:35 PM

Whatever, I agree with corey and okie - anytime you can manage to taper, it's a good sign. I was NEVER able to taper - actually, if I tried, I ended up taking more than when I started tapering!

Your post was very open and honest - also a good sign. Remember, withdrawal won't kill you, it just FEELS like it!

Keep fighting! When you feel like your losing strength, just fire off a post, and we'll give you some of OUR strength! (We may need it back from YOU one day soon!)