Hello Members and Friends: I have mostly been off the board and the internet because of my health. When a person like myself or I am sure several have gotten to this point, there is not much left to say or is there?
Yes, no, I don't know. You know? The insurance system is so messed up and most everything comes to money. I believe that's why so many cdome to these boards. No strings and no requests from the administration in terms of money.
So they must care.
I am sure many of us have wondereed about the light at the end of the tunnel. Also, I am sure there are differents beliefs about what happens isf anything at all.
My post today is one from the heart. I wonder does it matter which board we may be on when we all are searching for answers. And even some searching forn the light from the darkness. I believe that light does exist.
I believe there are purposes for most everything if not all. From all walks of life we are here. What brought me to this point? Almost 10 years ago, my family doc(a great one), told me way back then I was going tom have a hard time.
I have now had 4 endoscopes and lucky for me I had stopped bleeding before the they were going to burn the blood vessels.
Even so, all of the events were tramautic for me. However, since I cannot take any anti-inflamatories or aspirins which they claimed caused the bleeding to begin with. In all honesty my entire life has been near traumatic for me. Why do I tell you this?
Because I am being told that my end is near. I am scared. In my mind, death is separation from all you know. At the same time, it does bring eternal peace with no pain or suffering. This is my opinion friends.
With all the boards on here, I sometimes wonder besides support, talking, info, are maybe we are all looking for the light as well. I am sorry to all of you that I have been unable to talk. Even when I do, it seems that I am going in circles. This may sound crazy, but I need a handshake, or maybe a hug. When I leave this world, I will leave caring about all of you.
Yes, I am sure I am somewhat depressed. So what, I am anxious, deaf in one ear, etc... but I do wish to touch those who wish to be a part of sharing and ideas I have expressed about my life.
I am very tired now, and will tell you more soon. May all be well and blessed, Sincerely,
Risky Business
The Ligt at the End of the Tunnel 
, are not fun!!! But at 27(in 2 days!), I am scared, real scared!!! One of those things that make me think" I might as well be using "
It really helped me, my family has a history of colo cancer, and I have all the symptoms as well as severe colitis. Some people don't understand and think it's funny?? They just don't know what colitis is and does to you when it's severe!@ Thanks for the post telling each other to "just get along" in meth vs recovery. Some people just don't think before they post, and newbie's just can't get it that this is our experience's+opinion's!!!
, and trying to pull the scope out!! I actually
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