I was lucky -- this time! - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

WannaBnormal · 09-08-2003, 07:33 PM

Oh, man ~ I am feeling like one lucky addict today

I get one chance at messing up. If I do it again, the doctor will insist on inpatient/residential treatment if I want to continue being his patient. He wrote me out a new RX, for a week supply ONLY, and I have to "check-in" more frequently like in the beginning.

When I go back on Thursday I must take my SB bottle with me so the pills can be counted to prove I'm taking them AS PRESCRIBED. Thats ok with me, I'm just so totally thankful I have this chance

It didnt take long at all after taking a SB that I started to feel like a human again and I've gotten more done in the last 3-4 hours than in all of last week! All I really want to do is to be able to take care of my guys (hubby and 2 sons: ages 8 and 2), my house, myself, and help other addicts who need me. I dont want or need to be Super Woman/Mom/Wife ~ just me ~ full of flaws and incapable of perfection like everyone else, ya know?

So now I will concentrate my energy in that direction. Take my meds as prescribed, take care of my poor neglected body by eating right, drinking water, and exercise. I want the old bod to be ready when its time to start tapering the SB.

I WannaBnormal and I feel like its possible now. Not so long ago, it seemed completely impossible

Thanks everyone for being here ~ you all are peachy keen

Your sister in addiction ~
LA

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Hopefortoday · 09-09-2003, 12:27 AM

I'm glad everything went well for you! Please keep us posted on how you're doing!

toomany · 09-09-2003, 06:20 AM

I too am glad to hear your dr gave you a second chance. Sounds like it really lifted a ton off of your shoulders.

Next week, at appt time, you will be happy to report that you stayed on schedule.

Well wishes.

Eggman · 09-09-2003, 07:21 AM

That is excellent although not suprising Dr. are in business to provide medical attention to suit our medical needs. If you Dr. would just offer up a refill anytime you felt that you needed it he would be doing you a disservice and probably be breaking his oath.
I take subutex for opiate detox treatment and that is exactly what it is for to medically treat a patient that is dependent on opiates . Treating my addiction is another thing all together. It does not fall under my Dr.'s responsibilities it is mine and I must own it.
My dr. made this very clear . There are several ways to treat addiction and experience the peace and self confidence that at one time was provided to my by opiates. My personal choice was to involve myself with the nonjudgemental and giving friends I found in 12 step meetings.It took some time and persiveriance to find the places that accepted me with open arms rather than the few I encountered where I felt that everyone was thinking "here comes another one who will be back out in a week r two". It was well worth the search effort. I am now able to look at misusing my script just the same as a relapse and if I am considering it I can call someone or just pray for the help I need to make it through the craving period.
Do yourself something nice and get involved in some sort of recovery any sort wether it be your church or a 12 step group or a community help group or just a few close friends that you can be 100% honest with.
It will pay of in all aspects of your life.